I Am Scared Of The Scale!

I REALLY AM SCARED OF THE SCALE!!   This fear goes clear back to my Jr. High days when I would get on the scale.  I hated telling my mom my weight, especially as I began gaining.  It was so humiliating!!  I fluctuated quite a bit in Jr. High and High School.  When I went away to college, I was one of the girls who gained the dreaded Freshman 15.  My parents have always been pretty active and tried motivating me to exercise.  It wasn’t something I wanted to do or enjoyed doing.  It became a battle inside of me…bitterness of being told I needed to exercise and the battle of my own emotions.

I have never grown out of the fear of the scale.   Getting on it became a daily ritual.  If I was down, it was a good day, if I was up, a gray cloud overshadowed me.  I know, I know…you should never weigh yourself daily.   I still fight the urge to step on it every morning.

You have probably heard of the white coat syndrome.  My blood pressure doesn’t go up because I am seeing my doctor.  It goes up because I  have to step on the scale.  When I was pregnant, I learned to turn around and not look at the number when I was weighing in.   I still do that today…I look away.

Up until a few weeks ago, I would hold my breath each and every time I stepped on my scale.  It hasn’t been very friendly in the past.  As I am watching the weight finally come down, I am feeling better and feel like I can breath as I step on it.  Today I got on the scale and was up 2 pounds and what did I do?…Yep, beat myself up for it all day long.   My mind plays an emotional game with me, telling me I will be “fat” forever.  My mind replays the number I saw, every minute of the day.  It’s exhausting!!!

When will I learn to step on the scale once a week and only once a week!!!  When will I stop being afraid of the scale?  Will I ever grow out of this fear?  Who knows.  All I know is I need to keep doing what I am doing.  Eating healthy, exercising and being part of a great support system.   I have 15 pounds to meet my goal and I am so much closer than I was 2 months ago.  I need to focus on the positives!!!

Here are my 60 day stats for my Body By Vi 90 Day Challenge:  Down a total of 8.6 pound, 9.75 inches and 1.6% body fat.  Friends are starting to notice, which is a huge compliment when they say something.  I have less than a month to go before I start another 90 Day Challenge.  I have one goal already made and may make another one once I reach the first one!

I know the Visalus shakes and the exercise compliment each other and are working for me.  Especially for a mid 40 something girl who has dieted most of her life.  If you are interested in learning more about Visalus, please let me know.  I would be happy to share how well it is working for me.

Disclosure:  I am not paid to write about Visalus.  This is my personal experience using the product and I am excited about the transformation taking place and want to share it with my readers.

 

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Comments

  1. I always dread stepping on it too and then when I do step on it, I step off and move it to a new spot on the floor about 3 more times just to make sure I’m getting the lowest read. LOL

  2. Oh I feel you. I have a love/hate (mostly hate) relationship with the scale. But it’s good that you’re trying to focus on health instead of the number. Keep that in mind on your “bad” days – you’re healthier IN SPITE OF those couple of pounds. Where can I learn more about Visalus?

    • Thanks Shanna! My hubby and sister always tell me not to worry about the number, it should be how I feel. It is hard to do though.

  3. I don’t think anyone “likes” the scale. You are doing amazing. You must be so proud!

  4. Good for you, Tammy!! I am one of those obsessed people who weight themselves daily. I personally think it keeps me on track. Right now it is saying I could drop a couple pounds but oh well :)

  5. LOL…I think this time of year all of our scales say that! :) You look great girl! :)

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